>Enough Said!

>

This was sent to me via Facebook…..

“Well,all I can say is that you cant trust anyone in that family!!!! So I find out KIm is married then she lied about oh pretty much everything up to the last day even making shit up!!! They are all crazy! ANd they always talked shit about you so dont be fooled by there deciebt,they are crazy! You seem like a sweet girl and I thought it was unfair that they always bashed you for your past and what you did for work! take care and good luck,”

I will keep the name out of the blog for respect…….
RESPECT…….
Wonder if that family understands that term. I never expected them to respect me since they have a hard enough time respecting each other and themselves..
Shame…..
I hope you guys are happy now…. Honestly if it made you feel better about your empty lives to pick on me, dont worry, i will take that beating. I will take everything you throw my way because i loved, and know Love, i will be that person for your guys, so that at nights, you can sleep better. When you look in the mirror I hope you are proud of yourselves and the decisions you have made. Dont worry about me.. im strong and im more than meets the eyes.

But now that im gone… who will you pick on?
Who will be your WELCOME rug
your punching bag
Who will take your pain……
No more scapegoat
only white elephant
only you
standing alone in the room
“Always getting together to be ALONE together”

>I wanna Push you around

>

Image via Wikipedia

“Im sorry… I never meant to take you for granted. I never meant to control you.
So much i need to say and yet so much you have move forward from

I watch you… I see how you’ve recovered so much better than i ever could.
We both knew it would end up this way and we both knew you would win
You’ve always been the stronger one.
Ive always been weak.

Do you think about me.. alone in the world? do you wonder how im doing?
Ive always needed you more
The days are going by
I wish i was easier on you
I wish you could have seen the real me
the one trying to love you the only way i knew
the only way i was taught

Im sorry. There is so much more i wish we would say
so much more that can be said
but nothing we havent already moved forward from.”

This was another one of those blogs that i wrote weeks ago and didnt post it. i do that often now because i realize my heart is a big fat liar.
I cant trust it
I should have never trusted it
I see this now because I went and married a man who could express his un dying love for me one second and take a vow before God and the next second throw away every picture we ever had together and not pick up a call with my number on the caller id.
How do humans do this to one another?

Im starting to think marriage is a joke.
Im not sure i want to ever get married again
Are we even friends? Can we even be friends?
Probably not is what he would tell me just to make me feel shittier
less wanted and less deserving
Im not falling for it this time
If you really dont want to ever see me again i will grant you that wish
I have done a good job healing
im recovering
I dont stalk you
i dont go over and try and persuade you to come back
I dont cry and make a sceene
These things are huge steps for me
sounds childish but thats how i got my husband to love me and propose
thats why i must let him go and be free
if he loves me then he can re propose someday
maybe down the line
we can be together again
i would only hope
but i wont hold my breath
I need to get healthy